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Saturday, March 7, 2009

I finally understand how some people don't like reading the Bible at times cos' they know what God's going to say. Bah.

"As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. 2Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love." ~ Ephesians 4:1-2

I failed. Like kasplat. I have not been humble, not been gentle, not been patient, and have not been tolerant. I've been edgy, frustrated, annoyed at how 'floaty' my mind is when it's time to focus. Basically, I've been a ticking time bomb in a continuous loop, minus the ticking. So it's basically boom boom boom boom. Rah.

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear." ~ 1 Corinthians 10:13

Ties in with what I said earlier. I can't seem to control myself well. You know like, when I'm angry, I'm angry. And I show it. A lot. And I know I'm at if-there-was-a-state-higher-than-boiling-it-would-be-this point. So there. I lose to myself.

Then there's how certain people are telling me that I'm not setting an example etc. etc. etc. Rah. I know it. I know it. But argh. Dumb pride. It's self-explanatory really. And it's not like I purposefully force myself to sleep during class and not do homework. It happens when you get 5 hours of sleep a day(ok so sometimes I bring it upon myself), and when you have a CCA that doesn't allow you to study and do homework and forces you to watch "Meet the Robinsons" instead. Imagine with me here. So much time wasted.

So when you're annoyed and don't want to hear reason. Having someone tell you that there is a reason why you have such a family isn't exactly pleasing to the ear. I know that for a fact. But sometimes it's hard to turn that into conviction.

Ok so I can't change the hand I was dealt at the start of life. I can't change the cards that's been given to me. I can't change how others decide to play with their cards, but I can choose how I play mine. Rah. Stupid proverb-ish sayings.

“The wind played with my hair at 8:58 PM”

about me

Name: Lim Xiwen
Age: 16
Birthday: 17th April 1993

Proud member of Sec 4 Unity 09'
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1. Grow in God
2. Grow taller
3. More time
4. More self-control
5. To learn how to bar
6. Fufil my resolutions
7. Leave a legacy
8. Improve in football

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