Reach the sky;

Friday, October 3, 2008

I'm brimming with happiness. A joy higher than elation and WAY beyond anything drugs and stuff can give you. It's been so long, so long, since I felt this way. Like, for no apparent reason, I'm just bouncing with joy. Oh gosh. I love this feeling.

Alrighty then. Today's SS test, considering I studied 2 hours only, the paper, was AWESOME. The only problem is that, I finished right on the dot. And the half a chapter I studied for did NOT come out. Yet I have a really good feeling about the whole paper. Even inference seems good. I'm actually being very positive right now and believing it's possible for a B. So there, when I said I can pass SS with God, I wasn't lying.

Aside from that, the hesitation that I had seems to be fading away bit by bit. Which is a good thing. It's such a great feeling, to be encouraged by everyone, left and right, plus God too. I won't lie, I'm terribly excited. Now, life is more than the here and now, it's not about studies, it's not about meeting the expectations. Neither is it about getting an ipod/itouch(depending on the folk's mood). It's about Him. When you realise that God is real and the stuff he can do to a person, everything isn't as important anymore.

I've got so many promises in him. It's kind of scary how there's so much more to look forward too. I haven't got everything perfect and all but hey, it's improving.

I just got a new cd player cos' my old junkie disc player from some ancient garage finally died. Plus a new cd. So yeah, that contributes to the happy, but not as much.

You know, now looking at what I was doing last night instead of studying SS, as I sat there in Coffee Bean, I was like cut off from the world. Not in the emo-all-alone sense. But the way in which it was like viewing the things moving and changing my life. And I realised I still have yet to treasure all that I have. I take so many things for granted, God's love, my parents, my dad, my mom, my brother(oh gosh. I never imagined I'd say that), my sister, my cousins, my friends. There's still so many things left undone. So many things left unsaid, many things lost. As I sat there, I received a message wishing me luck from my cousin(Yaqi). We haven't talked since like, 1-2 months ago. Our relationship(like sisters) faded with me moving to Australia. Our lives, took very different paths. Relating to one another is a challenge in itself. Yet, the opportunity came. I thought I was mad and overambitious at first. But when those words came, it was worth it.

"Thank you for all those words. It motivated me in some sense!"

I wanna' do stuff and impact the lives of others. Big or small, I don't want to remain the encouraged, I want to be the encourager.

"Surely, as I have planned, so it will be, and as I have purposed, so it will stand." ~ Isaiah 14:24

"For the Lord Almighty has purposed, who can thwart him? His hand is stretched out and who can turn in back?" ~ Isaiah 14:27

Doubt? There is no place for that. The only option is to surrender. Stopping isn't even on the list. He hasn't given me a reason to show he's not worth it. In fact, he's all there is. The prize, the goal, the one.

"Wake up, O sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you." ~ Ephesians 5:14

Yes yes. Time to wake up. Time to see through his eyes.

“The wind played with my hair at 1:19 PM”

about me

Name: Lim Xiwen
Age: 16
Birthday: 17th April 1993

Proud member of Sec 4 Unity 09'
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1. Grow in God
2. Grow taller
3. More time
4. More self-control
5. To learn how to bar
6. Fufil my resolutions
7. Leave a legacy
8. Improve in football

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