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Wednesday, August 13, 2008

You know what? Today, was supposed to be the day 80% of my life went back to normal. But that obviously didn't happen.

Apparently TSK(Haha. Hui Min told me something funny about those initials) seems bent on messing everything up for me. ARGH! So now, that class is going to get punished and all. Well at least the ones identified as cheaters. WHAT RUBBISH! YOU TELL ME ONE THING AND YOU DO THE OTHER?! And sides', not everyone you guys identified as a cheat did cheat. So now, I'm back to square one. The whole security blanket that I found yesterday disintegrated and reality came crashing down on me.

Dang. So like, haha. This isn't going to end anytime soon is it? I'm so distracted now. I messed the whole of 听写 up as well. If this keeps up, I can kiss my dream PPR good bye. Now they say they're not mad at me and all, but from what I hear from others, it's a whole different scenario going on. "Try that for no investigation." wasn't quite the best phrase I've heard today. They're mad. And I know it. Sometimes I wish you'd just walk right up to me and stab me or something. Be direct. I hate the 'soft and nice' method. Hate it. It hurts way more, to hear the truth from a 3rd party. But hey! What can I do? I've done all I see physically possible and within my power, which in this case may I remind you I have equivalent to none. I've tried, I'm still trying. But I'm running out of ideas. Quick.

Mrs Dolphin tried to assure us that every thing's going to be fine. Haha. I said tried. Cos' her plan failed. I'm nowhere near relaxed and calm right now. And then there's impending doom awaiting next week for SS and A Maths. If this thing doesn't end by latest this Fri, I can already see how well I'll do for those tests. Not that I can see how exactly SS could get any worse anyway.

Oh and E-geog was by far the worse lesson today. Or is it chemistry? I've got no clue. Ah well. It's the same. During Chem, I lost my worksheet and was made to stand at the back for a whole hour(so primary school) but it wasn't the standing that bothered me. It was the whole backache issue. Dunno. Everything decided to freeze and feel stiff. So I ended up facing the wall and sleeping. Well, sort of. I didn't sleep, but I closed my eyes and shut everything out. Then there's Geog. I was dead-beat by the time the 2nd half of the school day started. I don't know why either. So I ended up falling asleep. This time for real. Then when the Mrs Ferns(pseudonym here) woke me up and told me to go wash my face. I had the feeling the whole class was drilling their eyes into my back. Of course that's just speculation, but I'm paranoid now.

Haha. I'm going crazy. In this situation, I'm laughing? Yeap. I've lost it. Completely. I know, just realised, that I really should have shut up right from the beginning and minded my own business. But it's not like I can change the things I've done now. The only thing I can do is bear with it all, complete with stress and confusing comments from people, and try to change the course of this crashing train wreck.

Not that that's working of course. I'm gonna' collapse from fatigue at this rate.

Now would be a good time to 'talk' I guess.

“The wind played with my hair at 3:08 PM”

about me

Name: Lim Xiwen
Age: 16
Birthday: 17th April 1993

Proud member of Sec 4 Unity 09'
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1. Grow in God
2. Grow taller
3. More time
4. More self-control
5. To learn how to bar
6. Fufil my resolutions
7. Leave a legacy
8. Improve in football

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