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Thursday, August 14, 2008

Is it all over? I wonder. Sure we got an answer and all. Well, sort off. The result? No retest for us except for a class. Then again, I can't really tell. Should I be happy, or sad, or confused, or angry. Beats me really. More like... a mixture. Not that it sounds very sane and all.

I mean... yay? There's no more retest. And to add on, the whole A maths test got shifted to Term 4 week 1. More time for me to clear my head and sort everything out, cos' it's a mess right now. But now, they announced they're investigating. And well, I guess the source of my headaches would be that in a way. I've got nothing to hide. But then, there are a few individuals whose reactions I'm worried and 'fraid about. I mean, I don't really know what's going on in their heads and all. So yeah, I'm worried about that bit.

Aside from that, we've done all we can. There's nothing that we can really do anymore. Besides, I think Mrs Dolphin is going to get sick of my face if I keep going up and all. So all I really can do is wait, observe what happens, and try to smoothen things out should there be any mad people(which I think is highly possible).

And then there's my mom, and leaders? I don't mind the latter finding out about this whole thing(they don't know yet. Save for maybe sis coco) and all, cos' I dunno. I know they mean well. But then for my mom? Big issue there. She keeps probing. And was like, "ever since last week after you went to church, you've been so... (I don't know what she said. Wasn't listening. Something about dead and not studying). Why ar? Traumatised is it?" Like hello? Traumatised? Do I look traumatised by you? I wish she stopped probing and speculating. She has some strange scenarios playing in her mind.

So yeah. I also noticed I've become more crude in the process of this whole thing. Like, more impulsive, and agitated. And all. I should stop. Like seriously. Bad bad bad thing that is.

@Lulu: I'm not really in a position to say this. And I may not know how your end of things is really like. Plus the fact that I have no idea what I'm doing right now. But like yeah. I read your blog:

I'm so disappointed. But I can't do a thing, I can't, I can't.

You know what? Yeah to a certain extent we are all powerless. But there's one thing you can do. Have faith. Faith that you'll live through this whole thing, and faith that your class will go through it together. Lucky for you, yours is a class. We're 2 people. If things are going to be like this, go through it together. You and your class. You're not alone(26 others you know?) Haha. Yeah, definitely in no position to say all this. I'm crazy.

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Name: Lim Xiwen
Age: 16
Birthday: 17th April 1993

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4. More self-control
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